Kumbh Diary 4

Back home from Maha Kumbh, completely dazed and bodily weak. The cold and monthly cycle.

Came back via Kaashi as was the forward journey. My friend helped me find a guest house near Scindia Ghat which is my home in Kaashi. Getting to a place near the ghats can be difficult as you have to walk up and down the winding narrow gullies or streets with your bag. Only Mahadev can help you as literally nobody else can help.

A friend in our group was with me, his flight got cancelled and seeing that the search for the Guest house seemed to be a herculean task, he decided to take the next available flight back and left for the Airport. Also, it looked like his tolerance level for me crossed the limit. I can be difficult!!! And i started walking with my bag on my back with the google map on and my legs going weaker and weaker. Finally by asking around, reached the guest house.

Waited to check in and finsihed all procedures and he said the room was on the second floor and no lift! Somebody had to carry my luggage up, i just didnt have energy left in me.

Got in the room, changed the first room to bigger one and just went flat on the bed. I was freezing. Layered myself with warm clothing and wanted someone by my side to help me.

I called my Babaji who is in Scindia Ghat and asked him to send Ladoo, the little girl who lives with her father and two little brothers in the Ghat. She is like my second daughter. I didnt know whether she would be able to find her way to the guest house.

I slept. After sometime the owner knocked at my door and said two kids have come to meet me. I was releived, excited and happy.

I got some energy back. Got dressed and wanted to drink black tea. Asked a few tea stalls, they didnt serve black tea. It was my fasting day, Monday. Kaashi is famous for Chai, milk masala matka chai and who would be asking for kaalee chai!!

She guided me through the lanes and soon reached Babji s Kutir. I felt more better. There is a Hanuman Mandir and Ashram right next to his Kutir and last time when i fell sick they had made a Kada for me which gave me so much releif. The swamiji there himself made the Kada for me. I was deeply grateful. Drank it and went back to Kutir or kutiya as they call it.

There was this Man from UK, Babaji s friend, and had a wonderful conversation with him.

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 Kumbh Diary 5

When Body Consciousness took over Soul Consciousness

We reached Maha Kumbh Nagari on the evening of February 1st, 2025. Ten of us travelled from Kaashi to Prayag Raj by UP State AC bus which appeared to be designated just to take us to Kumbh. One of our group member's friend's father in law was the driver and made special arrangement to get us in before start time. However even throughout the journey not many passengers where there and again we had a comfortable journey till the outer limit of Kumbh City. We did have a tea break in between; had left Kaashi at about 10 am.

From Outskirts of the Kumbh city we had to take bike taxi to Ganga Thad from where we had to walk through different sections to finally find our camp, the main Juna Akhada Camp where Sri Mahant Mukesh Puri ji stayed. That was our base. The first recognizable face we saw as we entered Kumbh Nagari was of Mona Lisa's sister. We smiled and walked on though we would have liked to stop and chat and take photos .

Settled in our humble hay huts and had a good lunch served by two of our group members who had reached earlier in the Camp. i had a list of Sadhus i wanted to meet, tried to find people to come along and we went in search and search and didn't meet anyone as it is a really vast area and confusing addresses.

Some went for Triveni Snan, I wasnt ready yet for the Snan. had too many mental and physical blocks to take that dip. wasnt even sure if i want to do it either. My group members had all finished the dip and was asking me why I haven't.

The next day morning again our group members went for the dip and no I wasnt ready yet, one- the Cold, two- the Uncertainty, three- the constant insult by a living soul. Also, my concept of Ganga Mata , close to me is pure and clear like the one flowing in Uttar Kaashi where I was a few years ago. She is really the Mother!

However on day two we met the newly appointed Malayali Mahamandaleshwar Sri Anandavanam Maharaj of Juna Akhada and the imposing Shambu Maharaj of Pilot Baba camp.

In the evening again everyone prepared for Triveni Snan and I was left with no choice but to follow.

Yes, I finally took the dip, taking quite a time to prepare myself step by step.

 Kumbh Mela Diary 7, Kaashi

We stayed in Kaashi on Jan 31, at the start of the journey to Kumbh. Yes, we were in Scindia Ghat with Babaji. Their day starts at night and i took a short nap in the modest Kutiya as my co-traveller was trying to unravel Aghori sadhana from Babaji.

It was now time for Babaji to go to Manikarnika Ghat for his daily Sadhana. He needs to do his shringar and i was given the task to put a big red round bindi and apply the kajal i had with me.

He had to have his prasad in his Patra, the skull. Since i am on Sattvik path i had to as always say No to the fermented drink and he just put one drop on my tongue along with a small piece from the inner layer of the skull. It was too overwhelming for me: not sure whether to devour it or take it out. He said i can do either.

I decided to take it in and chewed on it and a bit of someone's remains on this earth got into my system.

Then we headed to the Shamshan each one of us taking one of Shiva s guarding tools. I took a small Trishul. Spent a whole length of night sitting on a piece of cloth that covered the last body that went on flames. Sitting beside Babaji, a crowd watching and two of aides guarding, living the Truth, you realise there is nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

My mind was empty, not even thinking of Mahadev, totally numb. The sadhana was over and at the exact moment the Electricity went off and the whole of Manikarnika Ghat was plunged in darkness. It was probably a reminder that Mahadev was watching over.

Babaji thanked the Shamshan Karmis, gave them Dakshina and we returned back. Went to the Ashram nearby where were to stay. The room was occupied by a few young men and by the time i got ready and came in my co traveller occupied the other remaining mattress and i was left with just one blanket in the severe cold.

Mahadeva!!

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Pure Love

 She was packed in a bag

And kept in the freezer 

To send her to heaven 

I kept checking my phone 

But he never called 

My stomach goes weak 

I didn't like the joke 

They said at the funeral 

Yes, Nobody dies 

It is just passing on 

People will question you 

Hurt you, Insult you 

But you will shine brighter 

And the stars will smile 

Looking down with pure love

Longing

There was something 

That caused great pain 

What could it be

The fakeness of the world 

Or the crisis or the crimes

Could it be the betrayal

Or the love lost 

Must be the people 

Who hurl harsh words  

The emotions let loose

You are trapped 

In the truth of life

Engulfed by the pain of the universe

Longing for a loving embrace

Earth Love

 Some are like Earth while others;

Like the sky.

Earth feels the pain of the world 

The trash thrown at her piercing  through her heart 

Yet she nourishes and shelters

And chooses  

To spread beauty and peace 

And overcome the deep anguish 

She extends her hand full of love 

Will you hold her, lovingly

As the sky floats freely 

Not stopping by to love

Castles

 I built a castle in the air

It was the most beautiful one

It was made of boundless joy of love 

But I decided to abandon it

Because it was just a castle in the air.

There are wars going on 

Dreams shattered 

Love lost, beauty vanished 

Lives lost, light vanished 

The castles you build on earth 

Also come down in a moment

Drink

 The tiny star, one among the millions embedded on the night sky draped in shiny deep blue silk,  overflowing with effervescent bliss

Of the drink of love 

Mixed with buoyant joy

Looked down at the world 

Lying peacefully in the expanse of the sky

Pouring out her heart

To the one who filled her love cocktail.

A moment of eternity .

Don't !!

Don't fall, my dear friend
They will try their best 

To make you lose

But stand tall, be strong

Let the storm pass

Hold strong to your faith 

Nothing else matters

It is just you and the Universe !!!

It is time

It is time to speak 

As the waves hit you hard 

Right on your belly 

You wail in pain 

The sea becomes merciless 

Drenching you completely 

Out of the blue!

You thought she would be calm 

And will understand you 

But the waves hit her hard

And she had to speak 

Speak of the enormous pain

That Man gives their fellow beings

Hear her, hear the pain 

The pain of Mankind 

Of the evil manifesting in them 

The tragedy of life!!!

Let rain wash it all away

The water from the heaven 

Are blessings from Him!

 Why did the raindrops fall so harshly on the 

beautiful blooming flower

making it wither before smiling at the world

why did he change the way he looked at her

filling his eyes with hatred

making her burn in the fire of pain 

why does he think the rose 

is full of thorns

though its fragrance and tender petals 

allure the world /

They will

 And they will kill me they will kill me

Because  I don't agree with them

And they will kill me they will kill me

Because I love my land

And they will kill me they will kill me

Because I am not ashamed of myself

And they will kill me they will kill me

Because I don't hate my leader 

And they will kill me they will kill me

Because I am true to myself 

And they will kill me they will kill me

Because they think I don't deserve to live 

Again

The smell of death is nearing again

This time, the scent of red roses  

Filled the air and touched my senses 

Making death pleasant to bear. 

So, my darling, remember 

To wrap me in red roses 

Sans its thorns 

To  leave good fragrance 

As I leave